Parties are usually the place where you catch up with people you haven’t seen in a while.
It’s the “So, what have you been up to?” conversations that permeate over little cubes of cheese and a sugary beverage.
Usually, somewhere in the conversation, it comes up that I went to a holistic health school and do some health counseling now and again…as I polish off my second piece of cake.
I am always slightly embarassed and suddenly self-conscious – the way I used to check my grammar after telling people I taught high school English. I’m sure preachers feel this way, too, and certainly professional counselors. But all of us have taken off our guard, just like you, when we come to a party – or that is what I tell myself as I sip my coffee and plunge another handful of M & Ms into my mouth.
As a health counselor, I know better than to sabotage myself by eating all the party food – and that is exactly what is so embarrassing in these moments. But as a holistic health counselor, I also know the importance of relationships and parties and being able to make my own decisions about food – even if I regret that 10th meatball tomorrow.
How do I explain this in a short catch-up conversation? This is usually something I dive into after the third or fourth session with my clients…you really have to warm up to the idea that food isn’t the enemy – even chocolate truffles.
This Friday I was at a party and was fully engaged in a few conversations about health and balance, all the while completely aware of the mound of chocolate I had piled on my plate and the fact that I hadn’t had a glass of water in a few hours. One friend even told me of her interest in attending the same holistic health school where I studied. As I told her how much it changed my life, I wondered if she was glancing down at my plate thinking, “Reeeeallly??”
I left those two conversations at the party wondering if my friends thought a) I am a hypocrite or b) I am transparent and real and not even health counselors eat healthy food all the time and that’s okay.
I hope it’s the latter, but honestly, it’s hard to show balance in one evening at a party. Or maybe I just regret all the junkfood I ate.