Finding a Way Out of My Funk … with Scripture
I have been restless recently. I don’t know if it’s the fact that I am ALWAYS uncomfortable now that I’m about in the 3rd trimester (which also means I can’t sleep), the fact that the New Year is turning, that I’m staring down the reality of life with an infant (and a toddler) very soon, or the fact that I’m turning 30 soon. But I know I’ve been pretty difficult to live with recently, and if I’m honest, I just want to crawl in a hole and not come out until I sort this all out.
But I can’t do that. I have a very cute 13-month-old to attend to, not to mention a wonderful husband who would like a little of my attention – and, for goodness sakes, it’s the holidays and I need to be kind to my family, too.
In order to re-orient myself right now, I have been grasping at straws, to be honest. I have submerged myself in fashion magazines and online [window] shopping; and instead of finding some kind of grounding, this has left me more discontent (go figure, right?).
I have also been craving scripture, though – reading the Bible. So a few days ago, I dusted off a one-year study Bible from our basement and started reading. I loved the guidance of the readings – because at this point, I feel like I need someone to just tell me what to read.
My angst is still hovering quite closely overhead, but I think I’m at least on the right track now. Timothy writes that “all scripture is God-breathed and useful for teaching, correcting, rebuking, and encouraging.” So, even though I can’t quite put words to my state except to call it a “funk,” I know the power of the living word to saturate my life is just the cup of water that I need right now.
So, you can imagine how thrilled I was when I noticed a lot of other mom bloggers tweeting about reading the Bible through from cover to cover in 90 days. I did some quick math in my head (okay, there’s nothing quick – or accurate – about me doing math in my head) and realized that would almost precisely put me at the birth of this second baby.
I decided to jump into the challenge. What better way to prepare my heart and my mind for this new season in life – new baby (and also my 30th birthday soonish) – than saturating myself in scripture. It’s a do-able reading load (works out to about 12 pages a day), but it’s the daily act and consistency that is the real challenge.
I’m glad to be on board with other bloggers during this challenge. Man is not an island, for sure. And Lord knows women love to take up a challenge as long as they can bring a friend or two along.
Are you up for the challenge?
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Spirituality is one of the primary foods that I talk about – so I am feeding that craving right now…